Day 13 of the Yoga Girl "yoga girl challenge" is BE FEARLESS.
One of the things I've always prided myself on was being fearless. But that's not actually true. When it comes right down to it I'm riddled with insecurity when it comes to the things that are most important to me, that I want the most out of life--my writing, my acting, my love life.
The fear doesn't riddle me action-less but it absolutely prevents me from asking for help. The idea of asking for help terrifies me. I know there's nothing "wrong" with it, hell--I was in therapy for a year during my divorce--but when it comes to asking for help with my writing, my acting, my love-life, well that scares the shit out of me. It's as if I feel that my dreams are bigger than I deserve to dream, that I should be thankful for what I have and ask not for more.
But tonight, with the new moon, I dug out my Buddha that sits in the corner of my room and set him in front of me to watch over my asking-for-help process. This Buddha has What you think you become scrawled on the bottom of the statue and there's nothing I believe more fully. Thought and intention are powerful beyond words and for good or for bad our dreams, our worries, our insecurities, well they become us if we're not careful.
So tonight I sat down and became fearless, scribbling out what I wanted and very carefully, deliberately asking for and then believing I'd receive what I wanted.
Twenty minutes later mozzarella sticks showed up at my door.
Turns out fearlessness pays off.